moving forward

she was duo guardian, a father and mother as a whole basically I was raised by a single mother till to date moreover I would get hurt a couple of times when my childhood friends would brag about how their fathers promised to buy them fancy toys or game stations and truth is I wanted a taste of that too but knew that mother was already doing enough to sustain our family’s welfare I mean it wasn’t her fault that her life was not pretty in the beginning, I believe God always has a plan for every house that leaks on the roof and that is why my instincts convinced me that she had not chosen the type of life she was living. Contradictions got the most of me and grew curiosity to know my father’s whereabouts most importantly why my mother had to raise me all alone for over two decades. The past twenty years have not been the easiest though I kept trying to figure out the reason the man who had a spot of being my father threw it away, I got to ask myself if I was lucky or unlucky to be fatherless little did I know it was not really important to hunt a man instead of treasures that will construct my tomorrow. I was tempting with time, something that never stops but as it keeps passing deadlines meet ends. Its a fact that I am so blessed to have a biological guardian no matter the criteria moreover have come across kids that were born parent-less and some abandoned further would without question cherish a place that creation placed me in that for years I have considered as hell.